Para su Amor

I don't even know what it is anymore
Is it an obsession
A lust, a want,
True Love?

I don't even know anymore
I know there are people in the world I love
My family
My friends

There are different types of love
Family love
True Blue Friendship
Love for a man that you never knew you could

I know I love all my family
I love Sarah and Kristina and Emma
I love people who are closer to me then my own family
In times of darkness

But I don't know if I've ever loved a man
So much as I loved that boy
But was it all fake
A desire that was crushed so easily?

Am I in love?
Or am I in love with the wrong man?
I hope I'm not so desperate to go with another
When I've waited so long

Just to hear you say those eight letters in my ear

Moment of Perfect Clarity

Have you ever had a moment
That one perfect moment
where it was suddenly so clear
What you were meant to do with your life?

But then as you thought about it
You grew weary
Or afraid
Or unsure of it was really the right thing

How many people would you disappoint if you did it
How many would you hurt
How many would wish you went to college before that
How many could be saved if you did though?

So many times
Running through this situation in my minds eye
Someday is sometimes not as good as now
Now I'm asking if you know what to do

Maybe you need to write a book, or direct a movie,
Or talk to someone who you've never met
Or write a song.
Maybe it will change, influence someone's life.

But maybe 'now' means when the circumstances fall in place
Miraculously like falling from heaven itself
And that really means now
So its actually in the perfect time

So someday I may be a 'rock star'

Memories of Yesteryear

Have you ever had that one moment
That perfect moment
That you could never describe
Never redo again?

That moment while seemingly lost
Is stuck forever in your mind
Playing over and over
Like a broken record

And the details start to get less clear
But the over all message is still there
And it seems like a distant thought
An old dream

Maybe you don't even remember it for a few days
Or weeks
Or months
Or years even

But Its Still There, Waiting to Be Remembered

Here, There, and Everywhere

Sometimes I wonder what I'm looking for
So deep down
So far away
Just not there

I wonder what the purpose is
There's no point
Give up
Give up

But looking harder
Deeper
Farther
Brought me some of the best things in my life

Types of love that I never knew were there
Coexistence with those I'd never known
The realization of who's not your friend
And who's your best.

Looking Around Gets You Nowhere

Where We're Suppose to Go

I'm sorry
I guess I just didn't think
That in my anger it would be put
Entirely on you

Who am I to judge and be judged?
To be falsely angered against
To put truth on a stick
Waving it around as a two faced banner

But as the song goes
Right now I'm so
Frustrated, Irritated, Disconnected
From it all

I guess that someone just pushed me
Off the fringe of the deep end
And I looked at the world
Through red tinted glasses

But I always knew that I was wrong
And there was no reason to be angry at you
Except that you rarely seem to say
Anything to me

But its not your fault
I understand
But it seems that you only give me half truths
Or don't tell me the whole thing

And I tried to write this in a letter
But the words didn't come
So this is the next best thing I suppose
Since I almost broke down

My minds running this way and that to get you back

Save Yourself From Weakness

If I was a superhero
I think I'd be fueled my hate, or at least anger
Running through my blood
Because that's when I can't stop to think what I'm doing wrong

But I'd be a villain
And every villain wanted to be a superhero
But their strongest asset was their strongest weakness
But thats not true for me

Who are you to tell me what I should do?
You're only human
I'm not invincible
And you're not unbreakable

I'm tired
Eating noodles
Drinking a juice box
Don't you think superheroes feel and hunger and thirst the same?

But this anger is getting out of control
My blood begins to boil
The one who caused it doesn't even know
That they're the start stop of it


I hope you know this is about you and true for most all

Lies Dance in Masquerade

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Covered in lies
We hang our heads in shame
To think what they've done to our souls
To have them burn in flames

One leaves a mark darker than another
Harder to wash from our minds
They eat our minds, our hearts
Our souls

Who is to blame for such things!
No one will admit anything
But it is our own undoing
We are the criminals

We cover others with lies, deceit,
Pain
Just to have it put onto our own heads
An eye for an eye, tooth for tooth

But how do you handle the lies and deceit?
Let it hit you hard, Let it eat your soul
Or do you laugh in its face
And give it no satisfaction?

I know what I'd like to do