Save Myself

I don't want to fall back
Into that place again
Those feelings again
That life again

Because its so much more depressing
And it keeps me constantly stressing
And I found that if I keep pressing
On, I can make it out

But falling back in would destroy me
So whenever I start to feel that way
I tell myself to stop
And look at how I've been since I left it

And I feel so much lighter; so much better now

Clash of the Titans

I cannot feel inspired right now
Because my soul is breaking apart
Looking for its other half
And my brain is fine by itself

They won't work together
When they want such different things
And my heart agrees with both these
Because its fine alone but secretly wants to be loved

So here I stand
By myself as all these couples around me walk
Hand in hand
And I can't help but feel so alone

And with Valentine's Day looming
I am becoming quite gloomy
And hope that if someone asks me
I won't jump on the bandwagon without thinking about it first

i don't see this being resolved anytime soon.

Inordinately Ruined

I am ready to step away from the ordinary
To leave the old unneeded things behind
Because they will drag me down
And leave me in London's mud

I will defy gravity
And find myself in the comfort of your wings
I am ready to look straight into the sun
And burn in its atmosphere

I have never felt more ready then tonight
And I will sing it loud & clear
Use me as you will, as you can
Because you saved me from six feet under where I am now

I am ready to be ruined to the ordinary

New Year New Beginnings

"The hardest part about growing up
is letting go of what you're used to
& moving on with something you're not"
You use to tell me

I never knew how easy it was to say that
But so hard it would be
When the time came
To actually do that

But I think I understand it now
And maybe I should have heard it
And understood it long ago
Because it would have made things a lot easier

I'll start today or tomorrow if I have to

Old Makes Way for New

Time to Let Go of the Old
Accept the Inevitable
And Embrace the New
This Coming Year

¡Happy New Year 2009!

5¢ Lemonade

There are times I remember
When we'd be sitting on my porch
I'd be playing on my guitar and you-
You'd be singing out your heart
The sun still rises like it did all these years ago

And I wish I could be with you again
Let's go back to when we were young
Selling 5¢ lemonade and going to the fair
To buy purple balloons
When the only thing that mattered was me and you
And our dreams

Now I see a loss of innocence is evident
As you wrap the scarf around your neck
Why did you change?
I can't get over how my friend is nothing more then a stranger

And I wish I could be with you again
Let's go back to when we were young
Selling 5¢ lemonade and going to the fair
To buy purple balloons
When the only thing that mattered was me and you
And our dreams

See the sun coming over the top?
It still rises like it did years ago

ⓒ me

Carpe Diem

Three and a half months left
And I'm still too freaked out.
But my stubbornness might come in handy
Because it's starting to push the scared part aside

Three Years and a half left
And I'm still too scared to know what to do
I want to go out there and live my life so strong
And maybe when it all clicks I'll climb out that window to find the open door

The rest of my life left
And I know I want to make a difference
I never want to have any regrets and I can't help but wonder
If these two things could possibly be the biggest one's if I don't seize them

Because I want to know you and myself better