Waves, Wind, Fire

Crash

With such force

against the rocky crags of my heart

Sting

With a coldness

my lungs revive and begin to breathe

Burn

With a vehemence

that i can begin to feel again

EEG Dance

Can't escape the thoughts

They swirl                                                 

                                 They mingle

They weave

Fade in

Fade out

Hesitating

The ghosts are shaking hands

do you want this

do you want this

do you want this

for the rest of your life?

got your back

and you've got mine

2 am conversations

running straight into the ground

                                 the touch

                                   the sounds

co-co-colliding                                                                          

where is my mind spinning?

one spot stop

sitting in this chair

and i haven't moved

more than these fingers,                              twirling hair                  

Details of the Past

Another year

past

vanished

gone.

Are you going to hold onto it?

Are you going to remember

Every Little Detail

That made it your best

Or worst.

It broke you

You are covered in bruises.

The black and blue pressed into your skin

"This was the year"

But it wasn't.

The promotion never came.

And you never reached your dream

So what will next year be?

Will you focus on the past

Hinder your next chance

To even breath.

Ah, me too.

I've been there.

I still may be

right. there. too.

But. I've been blessed.

I look to my friends.

I look to my family.

All around me so, so happy.

(And I may grumble

And may act spoiled.

But I know that I have something good.

In this moment .)

So I'll drink to their health

And remember them all.

And hope that this next year 

I remain so lucky.

Auld Lang Syne

Story of the Stars

i can see

that you're glowing

i can see

your lips quiver

so say what you need

so say what you have

to do

to do

  i will listen to you

because it needs to escape

i will listen to you

speak, whisper, yell, scream

then you will

BURST

into a million multicoloured stars

from the inside out

because your story has been told.

but it isn't over,

and that

is my favourite part

your soul is a beautiful living thing that needs to be known

Me and You, Me and Me

what will it take

to make you see me?

what will it take

to make you notice me?

is it my curly hair,

my lack of make-up,

my chosen clothes,

that make you look past me?

don't you understand?

don't you realize?

do you just not care

when i hold my breathe when i pass by

but i'm no here to change for anybody

i'm not here to please myself

i'm not waiting for you to catch me

five years too late

one word

one look

one time

one once

this is what i want, just once

Leave My Mind For Just One Moment

The spotted memories

Twist,

Curl,

Dance gracefully, frantically, in my mind

The one were our eyes met,

The one were you held my fingers

briefly

with your own

That time we talked about past days

And sad moments

I told someone, you, for the first time

 I heard the pain of regret in your soft voice

The words I wanted to say

As I watched you everyday that week

Filled by mind, body, mouth

In silence

But it was your words that made me

Look again for something

The missing part of me

That fills all of me to the last atom.

Oh!

I am so curious

I want to know how your faith is so strong

And makes me want to heal, grow, get stronger

I still want to know you better

I still want to know you

I still want to know

I still want...

Can't you leave my mind for just one minute?

I need to think things through

Like how my shyness became me

And that's the end of me and...

Why Can't I Just Forget About You?

The First Time I Saw the Lights in Your Eyes

 I'll do it right the first time

Because I'm not ready to live like everyone else

I'll do it right the first time

Because that's what I want

"But the heartbreak, experience,

the knowing you're actually in..."

But can't you see?

This is me. I know me.

Maybe this is meant to be like this

As much as I hate it

And don't want it

And may want to trade it in a second.

But my heart is aching as it tells me

how romantic it will be

to finally say to him one day

"I waited my whole life just for you"

Only you.

Always you.

I'll know. I'll know.

You're the one I dream about having.

We'll do it right the first time.

And even if you end up being my second

And I'm your fourth

We'll get through.

Because He keeps us in His circle of time.